There are times when I Honestly know that we both just stare at each other and see that we both miss each other. I look at you, I hear your voice across the room. Sometimes I wonder if you would do the same for me. It makes me highly dislike and disappointed in myself because I never got the guts to say how sorry I am about the situation we have put ourselves into for awhile now. I basically put my pride over my loyalty to you.

I want to be mad at you. But I can’t. I want to say that I hate you. But I know deep down that I will still love you. Maybe it’s just me who is making this more than it should be. I wish I wasn’t this way. It seems like we’re both okay and happy with our lives now. But to me, what it seems isn’t how things really are and could be. I know that we both miss each other. We are being both hard headed and it’s really difficult to reach out to you because I don’t want to look weak or compare myself to you anymore. I want you to know that I have become stronger and that I know better.

I just miss you and I hate myself for being this way to you. I’m sorry. If you ever read this, I’m sorry that you had to read it on here rather hearing this from me. I just can’t bare to see your face and hate myself. I know you’re always there for me. I thank you for that. I miss you.